Words with Randie is a month old today!
I’ve learned and I am learning so much in this journey. There are so many words, but I’ll narrow down what this month has taught me in a short list.
1. Dreams Are Not Linear
Words with Randie was not apart of the carefully crafted plan I drafted for myself. Before God laughed at me, I only saw academia as a route to a successful writing career. Deaths, rejections, work experience, and marriage shifted my thinking. I created this blog out of a desperation to speak, tell the truth, hear from others, refresh, relieve, and write. Waiting for academic programs to accept me and see me wasn’t helping me. In fact, my perspective on what rejection meant was doing more than bruising my ego–it was stifling me. I was viewing acceptances as permission to master my writing. I’ve learned though that the only true way to master any skill and talent is to use that skill and talent. I’ve learned not to wait and constrict myself to only one way of achieving my goals.
2. 500 FB Friends Don’t Mean Sh-T
Y’all, I almost believed that everyone who friended my personal FB page would also follow my blog. It’s so narcissistic, right? All I know is, people are making me work for their views and attention (as they should). And I am working. Everyday, I compete with yesterday’s Randie.
There is no instant gratification, and there is no easy follower scheme. Right now, there are no 500 FB followers, subscribers, fellow tweeters, and Instagram likes, and for there to be so, this early, would not be what I prayed for. I have to earn longevity and trust. Me saying, “I am real, here, and able” is not proof–content and consistency is. I’m learning to trust the process and show gratitude for the Wordies who are already here.
3. My Husband is Incredibly Gracious
I wasn’t completely aware of how much time, energy, hours of Youtube, reading forums, learning MailChimp, sending problems to support, making my blog mobile friendly, and a slew of other things would take. My husband wasn’t aware either, but I could never tell.
He walked around me as I hunched over my computer for the fourth hour straight like it was normal. He cleaned, walked our dog, reminded me to shower, and reminded me to eat. He didn’t tease me about the clothes that were still unfolded in our bedroom. He woke up to hold me even if I was crawling in the bed at 3:00am. The consistency of his support was often the only thing to get me through the initial startup and the stress of learning. I knew grace was a strength for him but it shows itself so clearly now that I am fulfilling a dream. He has plans too (just wait) and I can’t wait to prove that I can be what he has constantly been for me.
4. Whatever Fulfills You Will Energize You
What is sleep?
In real life I have my Clark Kent job and Words with Randie. I consider them both full-time work experiences. I have a new level of energy now, so much so, that I feel like I have two souls. It’s because I love what I am doing.
I have to make myself nap or sleep because all I want to do is: work, build, create, work, build, and create, but–I can’t do either if I’m sleep deprived or dead. I’m learning to find a balance, but writing, learning about myself, hearing feedback, and adding to reader’s days bring me so much joy.
5. There’s Space for Multiple Storytellers
I knew there was a world of bloggers out there but I had no idea the quantity of those bloggers until I created my own. (Especially POC and African-American women bloggers).
I’ve even fallen in love with some of their blogs, like this one: Whoisamberjanae
Still, though I’ve gotten lost in their blogs, I still don’t see what I write in their spaces. My voice is special. I have something unique to say. I’ve had to work on my idea of what success looks like as a start-up blogger, but I’m confident that I belong. I am happy to give myself the chance I’ve been asking everyone else for. Prioritizing and centering my writing is changing my life and breaking the glass ceiling I placed over my dreams.
So, thank you to everyone who will join, has joined, and has been here since June 14th. I have so much more in store and I’m blessed to share it with you.