I’m scruggling (with a “C”), okay?
It’s hard being a first-generation writer.
In fact, being a first-generation writer feels a lot like it did when I was a first-generation college student.
I find myself struggling with social cues and I feel like I should know more than I do, but really I’m just out here winging it.
We all are, right?
So, I want to switch up the “So You Want to Write” Wednesday posts and tailor it around my lived experiences. I’ve passed on some tips and I’ve given my opinion buuuuuut I don’t know much. And, faking the funk has been a struggle. I’d much rather document the storms and even the successes and build a community that way.
I do know that there are some things I can offer/teach, but there’s also a whole bunch I need to learn. There’s also experiences I’ve yet to tell y’all about and maybe if I get them out of my head, I could function—you know?
Personal Writing Updates:
- I recently applied for the same thing I was rejected for last year.
Why? Because, why not? Plus, I know I need a writer’s community and I know I also need some clout. This writing opportunity is a great way to network, vent, learn, and get a much needed motivation and confidence boost. Maybe I’m also a glutton for punishment? But in reality, I know that my writing is stronger than it was last year and outside of an application fee, I had nothing else to lose in applying again and shooting my shot.
- I asked the literary agent who didn’t accept my query last year for a recommendation.
Before you freak out—she said yes. And there is no one on this earth more thankful than I am. As I try to figure out this writing thang, I’m learning that “no” isn’t always the “no” we interpret when deep in our feelings about rejection, and even if I don’t get what I applied for—I’ll never forget her graciousness.
- A fellow writer: Ashley Coleman, is one of my new favorite people.
Subscribing to her newsletters and purchasing the (truly) inexpensive Permission to Write magazine subscription has been a godsend. It’s teaching me a lot about considering and reconsidering what success looks like to me and I’m learning that even if my long-term goals aren’t realized in this moment—I’m doing the damn thing. (Struggle and all)
How about you, Wordies? What scary thing are you up to? How are you struggling with a “C”? And, what are you doing to avoid succumbing to doubt?